I think i need to revamp my life. Things have been going downhill for me and i behave in ways that shock myself too. I am totally lost and helpless. I better do something about myself to stop things from going worse. I'm just full of doubts about the future, possibly because i haven't let go of the past. I am constantly pissed and angry. In time to come, i believe i will kill someone...not now..not yet.

Anyway, i'm looking forward to going down to chinatown when cny draws near. I had cheeseburger this afternoon and i felt happy. What are the little things in life that can cheer me up? I miss sharing an ice cream with daniel....we used to do that so often in the past but nowadays i'm hardly in singapore and he has to work....no more sundays where we can just spend lazing around..and going for our usual dinner and ice cream later in the evening. I bought a mac's cone for him just now....the final last part of the cone always taste best because of all the ice cream that has seeped inside...we always put the whole thing in our mouth and munch it in a satisfying way...but each time, dan always can't bear to eat it...and insists that i have it. Most of the time...i will end up taking half of it and forcing him to take the other......

I feel like eating ice cream with bread now.