I overdosed myself with caffeine last night and instead of studying, i was so hyper i started drawing. I took out the pentel crayons, charcoal and drawing paper i brought over to aussie awhile ago and drew like a person gone berserk. I had a mad rush to actually draw this design i just came up with on one of my old t-shirt, but because i didn't have a fabric pen around, i didn't. I ended up with a drawing of a guitar which looked suspiciously like dan's musicman...and a really rough sketch of my living room. They weren't exactly masterpieces but i think i basically let out whatever i had inside. My latest motto is: i am going to be a vet, artist or musician hahaha.......dan says,"make up your mind!" (oh shit, that was when i said i wanted to be a photographer hahaaa)......mum asked me,"why don't you go into music?"....i'm currently enrolled in vet school and getting my hands dirty with crayon and charcoal in the middle of the night instead of studying for my bacteriology test....hahaha...what does that make of me? This sucks. School takes up so much time i have no more energy left for my other interests...i found a piano teacher who lives near by and i really want to complete my damn performance diploma. But it's been like 10 years since i left playing...and i don't have a real piano with me now. I've brought all my drawing gear with me but i haven't even had time to unpack the brushes from their plastic...how pathetic is that! Hey where's my easel!?! After all this ranting, i still want to be a proficient vet hahaha....i'm pushing myself to the max to try to get as much hands-on practise as i can. Hell, i'm supposed to be off from farm practical this coming week but i'm just gonna hang around and practise whatever i have to on the moo-moos. Oh dear, what am i talking about now? Maybe the effects of the caffeine hasn't worn off yet...hahaaa....

I think i seriously need that one extra year of break.

Sometimes i wonder if i'm confused. Other times i just blame the fact that life is so short and there are so many things i wanna do in life but so little time......

I found one of dad's drawing of a Collie in my drawing block. I remembered i once did a sketch of Bonnie years ago. I am gonna frame the 2 drawings up and put them with Bonnie's ashes.......i miss her. And now the tv is showing "Beethoven". How apt....sigh.