Yuet Foong called me and asked if she could come over and study at my place. I flatly refused and said it was inconvenient. Pauline called me later and asked if i wanna go out for dinner with them. I flatly refused too. She asked me why i sounded like i'm gonna die any moment and i just shrugged it off and said i was just bored and stressed out from studying.

I can't tell anyone how i feel because at the end of the day, my feelings are uncalled for. Maybe the hard fact is, i'm just a sore no-lifer. I try to talk in the most rational way i can...but so far, no one seems to get my drift. Sometimes I try talking in a joking manner, other times i just try to say what i feel in the most truthful but unemotional way, but it doesn't work. Now i'm at the brink of holding someone at the neck and wringing the hell out of someone and screaming all my feelings out. God i feel so cooped up. Will anyone listen to my crazy feelings? Fuck can i just be honest for once?