Had to get up early for a drive this morning. Didn't kill myself or Linda heh.....came back and wanted to catch up on my sleep but realised i couldn't sleep anymore...check on cozzie and realised he's much better today. His ventral fins looked much much better this morning....it was all frayed and scruched up yesterday but it looks much more defined today...still a little tattered but definitely better. The dorsal, anal and tail fins looked less shrivelled up...he's been swimming more and showing off his "new" fins....I must admit though, that blueburst is more of a beauty between them two....not sure if it's the way they're bred...maybe it's because of cozzie's condition too. I checked and i think both of them are spade-tailed (no wait, mabbe blueburst is more of pintail/veiltail), long/thin dorsal fin fighters (according to IBC - international betta congress standards)...pretty normal body form too...

My test went alright yesterday though i suffered yet another panic attack and nearly gave up the whole test because i overlooked something and thought that all my calculations were invalid. To my relief, i was just too careless and a little cock-eyed possibly....finished up my test hurriedly...keeping my fingers crossed now. Two more tests to go before i return home to singapore, but dan and i are currently raging a cold war against each other...so i'm not that excited about going home to more fights. Hopefully things clear up before i go back....i know he's still pissed about my attitude and leaving irc suddenly me slamming down the phone on him...but he's said things that bothered me a hell lot too......does that make us quits? Till then, we'll just get on with our lives until someone decides to make the move. The last cold war we had....esther drove me to him at what 12 am....give me some credits for that (yah i know i was driven there, but it wasn't easy at all). Do i have to be the one just because i slammed down the phone? I really couldn't stand all that hostility...it gets on my nerves when things get so screwed up we only end up hurting each other instead of settling the matter properly. I am feeling alright now...if you do read this and you're feeling ok, give me a sign. No point getting all worked up and getting into all that shouting and fighting again.

Was talking about Japanese pop with Megumi and she tried to introduce me to Ayumi (but i'm not really into j-pop), so i politely refused. The only jap album i've ever bought is from Chage and Aska. I was surprised that Megumi has Andy Lau's as well as Emil Chau's albums too.....she was asking me where to get a mahjong set from because she watched some gambling show which starred Andy Lau and she wanted to learn how to play heh. I sorta remembered (before napster closed down) that i wanted to download SMAP's "LionHeart" and so i asked her if she had the song and bingo, the cassette's with me now. I love that song...the arrangement of the song is really cool...some quirky parts which sound really rhythmic...i got the translation of the song...still don't really understand the "lion heart" part haha....but there was one part which i like:

:" ...If someday i have a child
I'll love him second best in all the world and tell him
Someday you'll meet someone
Just like i met your mother..."

A good quote for today - "To err is human, to blame it on someone else is more human."