Not exactly a very good day.....in fact today sucks to the core. SUCKS SUCKS SUCKSSSSSS. I feel like crap now.

I just got my pract book back and i got the worst grades that i've ever seen in my entire existence. I was the only sucker in class who handed up my lab manual cos i figured it was only logical to make notes and answer the questions on the book itself instead of drawing the diagrams and whatever shit on another book. However, it seems that that was the fucking requirement which i didn't even know. Some people handed in like 2 freaking folders and 1 notebook and i was the only loser who handed in the lab manual as itself. This is damn stupid. Those people just copied the diagrams and pictures off our unit guide itself so what exactly is the point of replicating everything again....just for the sake of handing it up?!?!?! ARGH...yes i am lazy and i am complacent....yes i didn't do all that fancy shit that everyone did...yet why the fuck am i always the one who yells out the answers during lectures? (Just today i was commenting that no one seems to know ANYTHING about parasitology)...and HELL, i got the worst grade in class for my parasitology pract book!??! okok....cooool down.

I feel so mad....was supposed to go to gym today but ended up coming home early and bingeing on pretzels and diet coke. I just feel sucky today not just because of the pract book thingie. I think i really have problems with the people here. I have a feeling that some conspiracy is gonna come up again. I hate all these mind games lah...just fucking grow up huh....I have no time for people who have nothing better to do. I'm in a super bo chup mood now which isn't really that good...and i'm wondering again what the hell am i doing here? Is this what i'm supposed to do? Maybe it's just that i'm really disappointed at this moment, or maybe it's just a fact that only competent academics who are diligent and conscientious are fit to be here...not someone like me. Please lah..i never said being a vet is a big deal....i don't even think i'm smart or what to begin with...i don't understand what's the big deal being one. I really wonder what's gonna happen to me after i'm done with this degree....i try to believe that being a doctor is about practical work and not just being a maverick in class....but at this moment i'm not really convinced. I think i'm not cut out to be one but i'm like stuck halfway and i can't turn back anymore. Hell, i rather be a piano teacher or whatever at this moment. ARGH. I feel like crap now and i hope it's just a phase and i get up soon enough to do whatever i have to instead of moping around. Yups...guess i just have to perform up to standard for the rest of the semester.