last week

Fatigue, Fatigue, Fatigue

I fatigue so easily nowadays i sleep an average of 12-15 hours a day. It doesn't help that i'm working in the emergency centre now and my working hours are all topsy-turvy. BUT fret not, because this is my last official week in uni!! The last few hours are usually the longest, most dreary hours (I can imagine how Jesus must have felt in those last 12 hours before he was crucified). I'm super unmotivated not and it seems like i'm forever stuck in this last week. Heh.

I've had quite a bit of time on hand and have done quite a substantial amount of reading. Considering the fact that i haven't touched any books other than textbooks (oh yah, and Harry Potter books) in the last 5 years or so, this is certainly an achievement i'm proud of. I've finished Bryce Courtenay's "The Power Of One", as well as Mark Haddon's "The Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night-time" (which took me just a couple of hours) and i'm starting on an Oscar Wilde soon. I have been wanting to work on my music too but my Muse seems to have gone AWOL for some reason. However, some of my friends who have recently heard my works, are really keen on helping me out with my music. I'm humbled by the fact that they even think my songs are ok and stuff. I have always been very apprehensive when it comes to sharing my music, so the positive feedback really came as a nice surprise.

Other than that, i have been doing a lot of thinking. There are things i want to do for sure, but it's a pity that not everything in this world can be accomplished with a single person's strength. Sometimes, there's a need for someone else to give you the final lift. Sometimes, there's a need for someone to make the ultimate sacrifice. The question now is - who should sacrifice?