Solitary Shell

i actually enjoy solitude.

Some think it's quite pathetic to sit in a cafe or watch a movie alone, but i actually find it pretty therapeutic. In a way, i enjoy silence.

Hearing yourself breathe. Doing your own thing. Relishing every minute that slips by all alone.

There's really nothing daunting about loneliness.

I love Neo. He's a 3 year old Goldie with kidney problems. Mrs MF told me he loves the rain, so whilst it was drizzling yesterday, i brought him out for a walk. He walked quietly by my side, as if sharing my worries of him being sick. I don't think he really gave a fuck about being ill, it was more of sensing my heavy heart that bothered him. It was funny cos when he looked at me, he had this reassuring look that seemed to be telling me that everything's alright. I gave him a big bear hug before i went home.

I don't want Neo to die. Please. You have to be strong, boy.