Feeling Zen (Again)

Feeling emo. Feeling zen.

I like standing back and watching people happy. Heads thrown back, laughing. Mega-watt smiles. Indulgence. Decadence. But i really wonder, what happens when the party is over? When you sit in your bedroom alone? When you wake up to darkness late at night? When the first ray of morning light blinds you?

Delusion works wonderfully for awhile, but when it wears off, the dullness devours you, bit by bit. Again and again.

I want you to be happy. Truly happy. It doesn't have to be me making you happy. I just want you to be happy.

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I saw the prettiest wedding dress ever when i was shopping at Suntec city. It looks like something Belle ("Beauty and The Beast") would wear. Very princessy. Very lovely. Would be lovelier with a swarovski-adorned tiara. Why does every girl secretly want to be a princess?

Elise just told me to go get married and start a family before i hit 30 because i would produce mongoloid kids after that. I can't just grab anyone off the streets to procreate, can i? As if it's that easy! If it is, she wouldn't still be single at what....erm 45? Oooops. Marriage is not just a contract with regulations that you have to abide by. It's so much more than that. Responsibility. Commitment. Trust. Fidelity. Love, but of course. It's sad how no one respects the M word anymore.

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the four seasons change
colours of green, red to white
with you, i'll stay through

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Back to Earth. 3 more songs to learn, Good Lord! And my patches all not done yet. The only consolation is that i don't have to bring my silver beast, because i can actually request for my preferred gear. In true rockstar fashion, that fucking rocks!