Seeking Closures

KS made me me scream at him last week and i felt bad after flaring up at him. Granted, he's obnoxious, arrogant and annoying at times but i don't think he's a malicious guy. Over the weekend, i casually replied one of his emails and said i'd buy him bah kut mee (with extra wanton) because i lost my temper at him. Surprisingly, he replied and said he fully understood why i did what i did and how he also knows it's just work-related stress and that i had a bad day blahblah etc. He also added that he didn't take it to heart and so there's no need for me to feel bad about anything.

I felt really relieved after that because it's not my style to sweep bad feelings under the rug. I'd much prefer to thrash things out in the open and then get it over and done with. Of course, not everyone deals with things this way. Some prefer to just ignore it (tell me honestly, can you?), some choose to just keep it all pent up inside and just never get over it - but what for?

But then again, open communication requires two person to be receptive. I fell out with M sometime ago because of some issue, but when i learnt of her hospitalisation, i tried to contact her, text her and told her to hang in there cos i really want her to be at my wedding. I wanted to visit her but didn't know if she wanted to see my face. From our common friends, i was told she hadn't changed her mobile phone number and my only conclusion is, she's still unwilling to bury the hatchet and let bygones be bygones. (If you are reading this, you know who you are. Drop me a line or an email if you're willing to let the past go.)

There's just one more issue in my life that requires resolution and i've been thinking for awhile how i should go about doing it. Things aren't always resolvable over a bowl of bah kut mee!Because it affects not only me and because i feel that things will just get worse and not better, i rather put a halt to it now than to let the misunderstanding deepen. I guess i just have to bite the bullet and do this once and for all.